It's quite common to hear this phrase on Sunday during worship. In fact the song is a classic, sung at most contemporary churches around the country, and yet the true meaning of this phrase is really a dozen songs in itself. For so many years I thought I understood the message of these words, but only last year did I realize that it wasn't just a concept, but rather an explosion of emotion, of understanding, of wisdom and of wonder, it was the moment that God made the blind man see again. For a while I've been selfishly basking in my own understanding, my realization moment, the moment I actually can say that I've met with God for a fleeting second. But tonight God not only humbled me but brought me to a new and more exciting revelation, by allowing me to see the glory fill my brothers and sisters eyes when they too began to see, to REALLY see out of their hearts.
Trying to hear them explain what they felt only to know that it almost cannot be expressed brought me so much joy. It's like trying to explain a great dessert, a first kiss, or seeing a fantastic movie. There aren't many words, and by trying to explain it you want to explode, your words get caught up in a frenzy as you try to articulate yourself, while your hands fly, gesticulating emotions and meaning. It's not enough to say that "God is good" but its truly what you mean for the first time in your life, and for once it has real meaning, true value. The world makes sense in some weird way, the Word makes sense even more, as you see people through God's eyes. Your heart starts breaking for people you used to despise, you want to pray for everything and everyone, and you want to cry and laugh all at the same time. So somehow you just end up talking a bunch and can't stop smiling, and its finally that you know this is real. Its not just a religion, its not just a Sunday school lesson, but THIS IS REAL. And then you are filled with passion, so much passion that you wonder how you even lived before.
Suddenly you see visions, you hear God's voice loud and clear, you want to do so much to help the world, and yet you don't even know where to start. You want to minister, to plant seeds, to see people saved, you want to pray for those who are hurting, and you want to share all this with everyone you know. And suddenly things start to happen, things that you always just thought happened in the old times, and suddenly God is answering crazy prayers, and suddenly you start praying crazy prayers and it just keeps going in a cycle. Encouragement from everyone seems to fill up your heart and you just want to explode with goodness, with love, and with God. And finally its all so clear, so simple, so worth it. And you realize that this, this FEELING is what being a Christian is all about, and that its all so beautiful.
And for once you understand beauty.
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