Walking on Water

Life changes in ways you don't expect.....I feel like thats the theme of this year (or past months rather).

Which way is up, which way is down...hmm...not so sure anymore.

I have to say that the only directions I can focus on is the cross. And I know if I just follow that I'll be ok.

I have a feeling its going to be a huge learning curve for me in this next year (and by year I mean next August).

I hope to have achieved new things by then. Make new friends, introduce some people to God, and grown stronger so that I can walk on water.

It's a delicate balance, walking on water. The splish splash as droplets skip and jump from the flick of my foot as it tentatively taps the water.

Sometimes I'm fond of too much description.

I don't want to swim anymore. I want to walk. Glide on ice without sinking into the abyss.

Perspectives

Watching the things I do does not mean I agree with it.
Living the way I do does not mean I like it.
Agree to disagree means there is never one straight answer.
Is there?

You see violence, I see a story needing to be told.
Does that make me bad?

Does it mean my heart doesn't break when I see things like that?
Not at all.

So why do I feel the need to justify myself?

I see things through a different set of lenses.
Does that mean either of us is wrong?

It's all about perspective, and mine keeps changing...on and on and on.

Professor Real World

People always say that life is never what you expect it to be. Yet for some reason we go through life expecting it to meet our expectations. Then when it doesn't we wonder what happened, why our life sucks, and why it can't be how we envisioned it to be.

Except that we've known all along this would happen.

With that said, I'm once again learning this same lesson. Plans don't work out, people surprise you, and often you surprise yourself. Funny that currently all three seem to compile into a huge stack of homework labeled "Things You Learn After College 101" by Professor Real World.

You're probably assuming that all of these lessons are difficult, trying, and depressing. In part you're probably right. Homework is never fun.

But I think I've been pleasantly surprised by the lessons that ARE interesting, creative, and challenging. It makes you question what you know, who you know, and proves that you might be wrong...in a good way.

I'm kind of hoping I'm wrong about a lot more things because that means my learning curve will continue to grow. And that's kind of exciting.

Expecting my life to be unexpected.

The Search for the Missing Piece

I feel like I'm missing something. There's a piece of the puzzle that got stuck under the couch or got sucked up by the vacuum, or just simply never made it into the box with the rest of the puzzle pieces.

I'd really like to find that piece.

I feel like I've been trying, I think I've checked the map for alternative routes, and I'm pretty sure I tried drawing a line from A to B.

But none of that seems to be showing me the picture. So that leads me to think I'm missing a piece. I just have to figure out what that piece is and where that leads me.

It would be a lot easier if God just handed me the piece. But I guess that's like telling a kid that adding 2 and 2 together equals 4. They would never have to learn how to do it for themselves.

*Sigh* And isn't that always the case? We must learn it for ourselves otherwise the lesson is lost.

Life is like one big school lesson. Some kids get it faster, and some kids take a longer time to learn. Ideally going at your own pace would be fine....except that in this world you apparently get left behind to fend for yourself if you don't learn fast enough.

But I guess greatness can happen at your own pace. I don't know who said that or if anyone has said that, but I feel like it can be true.

Actually I know who said that, it was the turtle who beat the hare.

I guess it's a good thing I like turtles, because it looks like I might be in this race for a long time.

Job Hunting

All I'd like to do in life,
Is help people,
Love people,
And share God's love with people.

Is that too much to ask?

I can't remember the last time I sat and let my Itunes run, waiting to see what little gems of sound would play.

Music, how it awakens the soul.

Question de jour:

Is ambition Godly?